Rehab 'time Relapse' Poem by Osaya Evbuomwan

In the beginning I was scared to open these doors.
I knew once they were open my emotions would start to pour.
Like a waterfall such enthusiasm
my feelings were put out on the table for the world to examine Something happened I was betrayed and I was hurt
It was then my doors started to close once more
like a scab sealing off a cut
Everyday was a struggle
with everyone in my face
I just wanted space
And to be left alone in my bubble
In the beginning I gave my heart away
When it was crushed and thrown at me
I vowed to never let it stray
Now I'm in rehab trying to find balance to allow someone in and be free
I want to dissipate The act of nonchalance,
look into the eyes of the one I love and just be happy
Taking care of my self is nothing to new to me
shutting people out is my way of expediency
I'm sorry, but then again I'm not a sorry person…
I apologize, I guess for being human and
allowing the world to alter my emotions
How does one recover How do we forgive one another
How do I forgive and yet let another
Come into my life and piece together What was broken,
ripped out and left behind a space so open
that walking forward hurts from the air blowing by,
with every forward motion stinging like a wound dipped in the salty ocean of despair?
I Guess Life Just Isn't Fair
But I have to go to … REHAB Want to help me, Or make it worse?
Ill have you know I'm well aware of my worth.
My time will come with or without you my goals will be met,
my struggles will done
I am certain of this because my father God said
I am his Son

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