Reluctance Poem by Robert R. Railey

Reluctance

Forlorn and gray, seem to be the days, when she decides to stay away; though by phone or mail a message would, quite delay the dread
But will she commiserate and show compassion and help to stay the loneliness in my heart and mind?
Or does she know, or even care, what satisfaction it would bear: but the question is, will the one I desire surprise me, or will she continue to be aloof and obstinate, and reluctant to apprise
Though at times, methinks all is well and I dream of just one more rendezvous: but perhaps the wisest thing to do is to pray that her love for me is still in her heart; but will she do its will?
I'm sure that we might also wonder if the love we possess can move the heart of another, as stubborn as they can sometimes be
And yet, we men should know that when it comes to the hearts of the fairer sex, those we'll have to win
So please tell us of the mystery within as we pray for the keys on how best to begin
And also please help us to enter your hearts and minds for we need to know them well: but my very worst fear is that the time to act has come and gone and which then makes me wonder if the memories of the past can ever survive
Or does it mean that if I'm ever to feel truly alive once again then the dreams of the past must stay hidden forever?
Then perhaps this one-sided affair must now be forgotten for it was mostly in my mind anyway
It was enough, though, for that one lovely period, and it was definitely the best at the time; but thanks be to God, the reality is, that life can once again be sublime