Remission/ My 30th Bday Alone Poem by FOEVERAMI JOHNSON

FOR TWO YEARS I SUFFER INSIDE AND OUT
MY PRIDE STOOD TALL AND WAS BROUGHT ABOUT
MY WILL WAS DETERMINE TO GET THIS THING OUT
PRAYING AND CRYING TO GOD PLEASE TAKE THIS THING OUT
WHILE STANDING OUTSIDE IN THE SUN, I WAS PRETENDING
LIKE I WAS HAVING FUN, JUST TO SEE MY GIRLS PLAYING
AND LAUGHING, THEN LATE AT NIGHT, I WAS DOING CURLS
IN A FETAL POSITION LOOKING FOR WARMTH AND SECURE
THE ONLY FLUID THIS BODY HAD WAS CHEMO FOR SURE!
IN MY HOME WAS THE WEAKEST I'VE EVER BEEN, BUT
OUTSIDE MY DOOR I WAS GONE WITH THE WIND! ! !
WHERE ARE THESE PEOPLE THAT SO CALLED LOVED
ME, WHERE ARE THESE PEOPLE THAT SO CALLED NEED
ME? THEN MY HEART BEGIN TO WHISPER (NOW YOU SEE)
NOW THAT MY BODY IS CANCER FREE, NO ONE IS AROUND
AND DEPRESSION IS IN ME.
MENTALLY MY MIND IS SAD
PHYSICALLY MY HEART IS GLAD
DOCTOR'S FELT I WAS WRONG, CAUSE I TOLD THEM (KISS MY A**)
THEY HAD GIVEN UP ON ME BUT MY CREATOR PUT LIFE BACK IN ME.
TO LOVE THOSE EVEN HARDER WHO WASN'T THERE
BUT LOVED THE STREETS...