Role Model Poem by Jared Bradford

I don't know what path to pursue
I tell myself I need something new
But where, everything seems so used
It's bruised, the world can be so crude
So rude, you lose
Everything with one decision
Cause one decision leads to the next
Pretty soon you're feeling a bit wrecked
Maybe if I had someone to look up to when I was little
I wouldn't have to get a pencil and scribble
These words to try and express my emotions
Or maybe no matter what I still woulda wrote them
Eighteen years and I'm finally explodin'
I don't know what I'm in for
But I'm out to show them
That I don't just spit, I flem
Coming down on you from every direction
It's a damn rainstorm, you can call it a perfection
Back to the previous line that I mentioned
Sometimes I feel like a backed down wolf, threatened
Sorry but I've had a little bit to drink
And it's clouding my ability to clearly think
Yeah, cause I had to tell myself to put down the bottle
When my life is at the throttle
So no role model