Running Scared Poem by kendyll brown

i heard foot steps coming an i knew
this would be another night
an something inside me screamed 'this isn't right'

the words he's saying are ruthless an cruel
an each time he hit me, i sat there an obeyed every rule
i sat there scared an blank faced knowing i couldn't cry
for i knew wat would happen if he saw the tears in my eyes

each an every swing felt worse an worse
an then all i wanted was to be dead in a hearse
he got real close an whispered 'i wish you weren't alive'
an i was thinking, your right, i wish i wouldn't survive

he threw me against the wall, then continued to pin me to the ground
then, he hit me, an covered my mouth so i couldn't make a sound

i started to struggle an release me from his grip
the next thing i knew i heard a horrifying rip
his hands were cold an i cringed at the touch
i didn't understand how family could hate each other so much
i froze an couldn't believe this was really going on
i just kept looking at the clock waiting for him to be gone

i tried so badly not to think of the sharp pain
but this was all part of his usual game
i closed my eyes wishing time would go by
an the next time i opened them id be up in the sky
he pushed harder an harder, causing more excruciating pain, that was all i felt
the next thing i heard, was the unbuckling of his belt

something happened inside of me that i can not explain
i got this surge of energy that said 'f**k you an all your reign'
somehow, someway i got out just in time
but what he had done will never get out of my mind
from then on my life has been forever changed
it was like all i knew had been rearranged
i hate him with everything, an so much more
and that one day i want to end this war