S For Poem by Maria Sudibyo

I act surprised when hearing from you
Although I have known it for a long time
Maybe I'm too bored to give sympathy at all

Because deep inside
I want to make your heart bleeding
I want to watch your tears flowing

Everything in the world seems not good enough
What I see is all the same to me
Maybe I don't have any sense at all

Because truth inside
I don't care if my clothes mismatches
I don't care if my hair cut half

I don't like to be bothered and must be nice
I hate to reply the same answer
Maybe my patience really doesn't exist at all

Because in urge of strangling
I will curse your oblivion
I will damn your stupidity

I don't interest with your story
I only listen to your babbling voice
But I don't catch any meaning at all

Because in terrible lie
I won't be affected by your cold treatment
I won't feel anything about your harsh comment

I like to make you frightened
I like to tease until you flustered
It is so easy to shake your stance in all

Because in darkly desire
I love to see you screaming mad
I love to make you lose control