Sara Said Poem by mariena soares

I used to screw without condoms
and let the man
come inside me because
i was too shy
to stop him


Then i'd go home
and prayon my pillow
please
please
please
don't let me be pregnant


I couldn't sleep
or eat
just think

of my 15-year old life
with a child
PLEASE GOD
DON'T LET ME
GET PREGNANT


Then i would bleed
and find relief
until i was at last
at another man's mercy


An open vessel
whose function it was
to be filled
until my consciousness
could return and
spit out
the bad seeds