Securities Poem by Peter Campion

Beyond my father's distance and beyond his father's.
Back a century. My great grandfather's desk
in Cincinnati. How he must have cherished
its distance from the power looms below
and must have known: the fierce
precision of his nib on the accounts
pinning him down while sun
spilled orange across the river
kept him from falling
back there
and kept his wife
if this year she was
home from the sanatorium
afloat in her complete
edition of Browning
(which I own)
and kept his children
bound to the education that would carry them
thank God away from there.

The desk. It must have been
a rolltop. Maple with locking drawers and blotter.
Ribbon of accounting tape. Ledgers in which
the loops and slashes must have borne
even through Palmer Method regularity
his own peculiar
animal impress.
But across such distance
so much 'must have been.'
This morning
wrestling my son
I kiss his chest then
trumpet a tickling fart noise
until he wriggles free
and shouts 'again.'

O what aristocratic privilege
to squirm in bed like this.
What sweet barbaric closeness of our skin.

What solace and uneasiness
to know: however long from now
however distant in the loom of
office towers
underwater green at night
and running lights on cargo planes and
glimmer from the squatter shacks
under an overpass

some
memory of nerves
tensed then released to
warmth in his ribcage
will flow from this.
And then what solace and uneasiness
not to know
and only to press my face to him again.