Silently I Go Insane... Poem by Raina Hutchins

Staring out the window pane
Silently I go insane
Remembering what I try to forget
Try so hard but haven't yet

Thoughts of you invade my mind
I try to leave the past behind
But images engraved in stone
Haunt me when I'm all alone

This searing endless pain I feel
Stabs me with its blade of steel
I cannot laugh, I cannot cry
Feelings and emotions dry

I will rise from all this broken pain
I won't let your darkness win again
You tore me down, but I remain
Stronger now, I break these chains

You say forgive; I cannot do
Not since I lost all faith in you
You cannot stop what has begun
You can't undo what has been done

You used, abused, cheated and lied
You took my dreams; you took my pride
You took my soul; my sanity
You took my trust and dignity

Honest, faithful, loyal and true
Everything I was to you
Believing all your thoughtless lies
Until I saw through your disguise

Now I'm left with pain and sorrow
How do I get through tomorrow
I know I must forget I cared
Forget the love and dreams we shared

Forget the man you used to be
Remember what my eyes did see
Remember all you did so wrong
Remember now I must be strong

Refuse to play this mental game
Or silently, I'll go insane..

By Raina Hutchins