Silently Swear Poem by Maria Mullin

I silently swore
That would never happen again
I wouldn’t hurt anymore
I was so sick of you
Never noticing
So sick of watching everything you do
I told myself not to think
To just let you go
I told myself I wouldn’t care
I made myself believe that I was ok
For a year I choked back the tears
I put up a wall
You grew farther apart
I actually started to believe myself
So why when I see you
Does it hurt so bad?
Why when I see you does that old wound rip open
I fight back tears of anger and sorrow
I’d let my stupidity get the best of me
If you were so gone from my life
Why can’t I just let it go
The hurt you left nags at me
I just wish you could have seen
Everything you ever did
Now
I silently swear
You’ll never hurt me again
You’ll never hurt me
Like you did then