Sitting Here In The Sun Poem by Elizabeth Shield

Sitting here in the sun
Thinking of you
Watching the world turn
And the hours pass me by

There are still times when,
Even now, I doubt your sincerity
And others when,
It is concrete in my mind

To others, I am certain,
It has been blatantly obvious for weeks now
And I’m wondering
Why it is, that we keep deluding ourselves

Because I know
And I know you know
But this friendship
It is very important to me

I never want to let it go
Until you are sure
Until we are sure
That we won’t be overwhelmed by it all

The flood of emotions
Is normal by now
But it can still catch you by surprise
And it can be cruel

I know that you too
Cry alone sometimes
And that you too wish, as we all wish,
That someone was there to hold you

I see you too, being a jerk
And probably, the part I can’t see
Regrets it later
Because everyone does

But I wonder, also
If that mask you wear, is glued to your face
Mine isn’t, but I only take it off for me
When I cant stand to lie to myself anymore

I hope someday, that we all remove ours
And let whatever passion we have
Shine on through, because
In the end, that is all we have that’s ours

A passion, and a love
Like a fuel that keeps on burning,
For a thousand years, and never dies
Because when we die, someone passes it on

And I know that you aren’t the only one
And I am not the only one
There will be others maybe hundreds of them
But right now, at this moment, you are for me

And I hope that, I am for you
Though my feelings may change
I hope, for this time, I’m yours
And hope is all I have

So now, there it is, on these papers
A piece of my soul rests
Here, and you may take it and read it
But it will always be mine

And, it will always be yours

So here I am, sitting here in the sun
Thinking of you
And your hug
And your smile
I smile a happy smile
And keep dreaming of us