So Long Poem by Ellen frawley

You were restless,
Body tired,
Mind unable to rest,
Up and down to corridor,
Over and over again,
Eventually you settled down,
You begged me to stay,
I said I would
I sat awhile,
You kept falling in to a gentle slumber,
Awaking again,
Like you were checking i was still there,
I thought maybe you might settle better if i wasn’t there,
I looked at you so peace full,
Felt so full of love,
Sleep tight i thought,
I would call back in a while,
I would see you later anyhow,
Told your neighbour i had things to do,
Please tell her rest,
I would call again later tonight,
So many silly, unimportant things we worry about in our lives,
A year later I cannot recall,
A few hours, even minutes make life changing different,
Little did I know them few hours ago that was the last time i would talk to you again,
Leaving the house just minutes away,
Nearly visiting hours again,
I received a call that would change my life,
Please come quick she hasn’t very long,
The doctors tried everything they could,
She is not responding very well,
I was there in minutes,
There was a nurse waiting in the corridor,
I knew what was coming but wishing i was wrong,
We were shown in to a room,
We ll bring her in to see you in a while,
We re just cleaning her up,
She went suddenly and peacefully,
She was found collapsed on the floor in the bathroom,
She died with dignity with out a crowd,
Is what the nurse said,
In the bathroom on the floor,
Dignity?
So many questions,
No words came out,
Did she know that afternoon?
Is that why she asked me to stay?
Did she died alone?
What were her final thoughts?
What were her final words?
Did she try to wait for me before she left this world?
Did she know i was so near to her yet so far away when she left this world?
What i do not doubt is that she knew i love her so,
Although the words never came very easy but words are easily said,
I showed them in the little things i did,
A strange relationship we had,
You the mother, i the child,
Often the roles seemed reversed,
You the helpless, demanding child,
I the mother,
But your view of the world you beautiful, like a child,
Everything so easy and simple,
You saw everybody the same no matter of statue, race ect,
You talked and treated them the same,
If something didn’t get done today, it will do it tomorrow any way.
Goodbye my mother, my child, my best friend, my confidant,
With you a part of me also died,
But i will keep on living i promise i’ll try,
Goodbye mother, so long, good night.