Suffocating Poem by ally lira

the walls are coming closer,
caving in a scared and lonely me
boxing my torn up heart in.
my life briefly flashes past my eyes,
and i relive the painful and happy times.
i briefly see the laughs with you
and i pray to god youll remember me too.
then in an instant i see when you boke my heart
the big whole in my heart you caused
the ocean of tears shed for you
it feels like the memory stays for a second too long
the air starts to escape out of my lungs
and i find it hard to catch my breath.
i wonder if i could live without air
and i discover that living without you
is exxactly like living and not breathing.
i hold my breath
and try to convice myself to forget you.
your eyes, your mouth, the love that you showed me,
all stir up the memory of you.
with every ounce of my strength i have left,
i fall to my knees and cry.
i feell all the pain once again
and as i look up to speak to my father
i see the ceiling start to fall faster
i look around
and see thee walls start to spin
telling me its all my fault.
with every word it says it feels like
im being punched in the stomach time after time.
the breath that i was holding
finally escapes my shattered body
and leaves me sprawled across the floor
broken and torn up once more.
i cry harder with every memory of the memories that we made
finally i give up
close my eyes for the last time,
and all into a very deep sleep.





*********inspired by my ex austin james reed************