The Cards Karma Dealt Poem by Andrus Cassian

People tell me to try and be happy
and for them I try
yet how can I
What ways can I
I'm drowning in the cards
Karma dealt to me
I can't drown out the noises, the voices
the candle that burned out
from the overdose of a thousand lies
The wind can't appreciate a moment alone
the last night I had to say goodbye
I had to close the wounds before
the drainage started
Forget everything
Yours to hold, nothing more than a misconception
Agitation of the abbreviations
my reward for sacrificing myself
putting everyone else first instead of myself
My reward is a chain of misery
pain and suffering
I can hear the talk
but I'll walk over the edge
without a splat cause I hate it like that
Trap me in a room with anybody that hates me
and I'll be an animal in a cage
full of rage and hate
Too late for me to change
can't hold me
Rather be under a shady tree but shady made me
Despite the hidden rain
despite the look in my eyes
I'm dying on the inside