The Ending Poem by Maya Reid

So I guess this means it’s over
I guess this is the end
I can’t say I’m surprised
I mean, I knew the end was coming
We all did
I knew we were ending before we even started
That’s why I was so scared to begin
But I found heaven in your arms
And heard the music in your smile
The songs in our souls were perfectly in sync
And so I gave myself to you
All of me
Or, as much as I could give
I put me in your hands
And asked you to hold my little existence together
And, for a while, you did
You were my everything
You were all I needed you to be
But those, those are big shoes to fill
I knew that eventually, taking care of me would get old
That your arms would tire from holding up my sky
So, even though I love you,
And I can see myself when I look into your eyes,
And only feel at home when I’m somehow connected to you,
I’m writing this to tell you
That I get your message
It’s clear as a crystal
As a diamond
For those apparently aren’t forever
And dark light just can’t make it through the night.
I understand.
You were too much for me to ask for.
I was too much to ask of you.
Although it kills me,
I’ve left the doors open
You can leave the same way you came.
I won’t see you to the door,
But you know where it is.
If you’re leaving, leave.
Explanation and rationalization aren’t necessary
I knew it was ending
We were ending before we began.
But what we had was worth this pain.
I’d do it all again.
I’d do it all again in a heartbeat,
If it meant I could once again find heaven in your arms
And hear the music in your smile
And see myself when I look in your eyes
And ask too much all over again.
I loved you, as much as I could.
Remember that, always.
I will always be here.
But I won’t ask the same of you.
For we, we were ending before we even started.