The Last Time, I Had To See You Poem by Victoria Hunter

You sat them on an icy oak table-
the package of my father's ashes-
like an old-fashioned box cake.

Your dusty, branch-colored fingers
gripped a pile of pearly white paper sheets
with the profiles of people you were to keep
until their relatives were ready
to let God keep them or send them
to the next place they should be.

Then I swore I could see my father's ashes
throbbing through the box.
I thought he preferred
to be with drunks than with me.
I never got one call from him on a holiday.
I never got to know the strength
of his heart's soul in a close embrace.

Why should I care about his ashes?

I remember the room space, an opened box
in the evening in a basement.
I remember I sat, stiff as new chopsticks.
My heart was cake, sunken in the center.
My eyes were acorns in a puddle.
Suddenly you said, "You can come back
for them another time if you like, "
and then drew on one of the sheets
the cost for holding remains of
a poor black man you do not know.



Published by Better Than Starbucks in the year 2020

Nominated By Sparks of Calliope Press
for the 2020 Pushcart Prize and selected to compete.

Published in thejournal of Sparks of Calliope