The Lord Knows (How I Looked Up To You, My Friend) Poem by Lisa Vagnarelli

Since the day,
You walked into my life..
Ive never stopped looking up
To you, my friend..

Grew up together,
Since childhood..
Good and bad
We've both been through,
Each others sides
We've always stood..

You had a horse
You taught me to ride..
You had your father's car
You taught me to drive,
Your Father's rifle
You taught me to shoot..

You taught me all the things
You taught yourself
Since your beloved parents
Passed away..

Oh, how I've always looked up
To you, friend..

Every little fight
I'd get in into,
You'd always
Step right in..

Not only were you good at fist fighting, hey
But verbally..
How I've always looked up to you,
Friend..

But then one foggy morning
I woke up to find
You had gone,
Found a note on the kitchen table
Dyslexic, you tried to write
To say you had gone
To fight a fight
Your father couldn't finish..

Waited all day
Hours went by slowly,
Waited till sunset,
Tired, I saddled up my horse
Cantered away to find you,
Then out of the fog,
Out of the blue,
A horse, with you,
Lying across the saddle..

Took you down, oh,
How my heart bled
You had blood stains all over you
Gun shot near your heart

You looked up at me
With those bloodshot eyes..
Trying to give a smile, in despair you said
'It hurts.....but it's okay'

The Lord knows, I'm hurting
The Lord knows, I'm bleeding
The Lord knows, I can't stop crying
Th Lord knows, I'll miss you badly,
And the Lord Knows
That I wanna know
When did you stop
Fighting?

But he and I know
He's taking, I'm losing
A precious thing!

I have to move on, I know
And live the rest of my life,
But I also know that I owe
You everything..

So I just wanna ask you
One little favour,
Will you be
My guardian angel?

Cos I'm gonna finish that fight for you
Yes, I'm gonna finish that fight for you!
I'll use the skills you taught me to do
With you, I can win the land, and if I do
I'll name it after you!

All the trees, the river,
I'll build a house and a bridge!
I'll make it beautiful and if I can,
I'll bury you there, I'll bury you there!

For I know that's where you'd want to be..

Even though
You're not around
You up in Heaven,
And I'm on the ground

You will always be
A role model to me
I hope one day
We'll meet again
I will never stop looking up
To you, my friend.