The Portrait In Your Heart Poem by Claire Ann Sansolis

I’m still hurting from knowing the truth
I have been blind, I have been a fool
Thinking you felt the way I do
I wish I’m wrong but how am I to know?

I have tried to bridge the gap many times
I have shown my affections deep inside
The letters, the gifts, the praises, my time
I never withhold when it was my power to act

I know to judge you based on your past
Is unfair, unjust, but can you put that behind us?
Or else I will be forever damned
For loving you more than I should have

I can’t look at you, please don’t try to
I’m trying to still and guard my heart
It hurts to deny myself of what I feel
I’m empty inside for something real

‘Till now you’re acting like you don’t care
The messages unanswered, and you don’t dare
Oh no, why am I so distracted
If I don’t stop now I will be fainthearted

How can love be so pure and lovely the first time
Yet now I’m lonely, and empty inside

I wish I was the woman on your blog
I wish, I felt the way you loved
For I would never ever leave your side
If I was the portrait you painted in your heart


(5/3/07)