The Wolf Inside Of Me Poem by Marius Schoeman

There's a big black wolf that lives within my soul
whenever I get hurt inside, he assumes control
turns my emotions into despair or anger
devour my self-worth, like stage four cancer
It makes me push away, everyone I care about
fills my mind, with insecurity and self-doubt
It consumes all the hopes and dreams I ever had
turns even the brightest day, into something sad
All the bad things, I have endured throughout my life
have made this black wolf, grow in strength and size
for as long as I remember, it's been the alpha of the pack
always lurking in the shadows, ready to attack
But deep within myself, there's also the runt of the litter
a small white wolf, that's a scared little critter
it has always been neglected when it was feeding time
of all life's emotions, love was always last in line
He always had to survive, on the hurt left behind
a couple of times before, he almost died
often pushed back, into my heart's dark empty den
sometimes too scared to come out again
But some day this white wolf, will grow big and strong
it will realize it was born to be the alpha all along
it will face the black wolf inside of me
And the day he wins, my heart will forever be free