The Yellow Line Poem by Necessary No Name

i don't know what this is
to feel the freedom
of how it use to guide my way
comforting my mind

if they hadn't taken it that night
if i had taken the
trainer cops other offer

i might have drove away after
leaving this all behind

failing myself
a violated person

replacing it with whatever my carriage
would have drove me away from

at times
i thought
would i revoke my decision?
take the deal
the lesser
easier end
to that night

and even in my death of horror
in my sleep or days end shakes
i say no
hell no

and in this moment
fear shaking me lightly
i feel it will find it's way
home a home
not in me.

walk with me Lord