Too Far Gone Poem by Nicole Nieder

Do you ever wonder what it's like to feel broken inside? It's kind of like your heart has been torn into a million pieces and you struggle every day to pick them back up. But the thing is that you them must assemble your heart back together. Making sure each sliver fits perfectly. But the shards of your heart cut deep into your soul. It bleeds and aches for your happiness to be reborn. Do you ever wonder how hard it is to pick yourself back up? After hearing that your father has taken his own life and you never got the chance to say goodbye. After thinking your family had played a cruel prank on you, hoping for it to all be a lie. Do you know what it's like to have your older brother step up and be the man of the house at just fifteen years old? As he tries his best to keep this family feeling whole again. Do you ever wonder how your mom could survive knowing she had to support four kids on her own as you watch her deteriorate while depression consumes her? Do you ever wonder what it's like dream of a perfect wedding only for that simple idea of your father walking you down the aisle be destroyed? Have you ever dreamt of taking your own life and waking up to only have wished it had happened? I have. Have you ever felt so alone? I have. Yes, I've been broken inside. Yes, every day I attempt to pick up the pieces. Yes, every day I struggle to make myself feel complete again. I force a smile, I fake a laugh and I hope for the best. Happiness just seems like an obscure emotion I can no longer attain.