Torn Poem by Alyona Korovnik

Tired of sad songs
I promised myself to move on
I will be happy, best revenge is no revenge
Focusing on myself.
I will not lie I still hurt
Sometimes my pain goes so deep that I just want to sleep forever
Occasionally I want to puke my guts out from all the tears from deep within my soul
I still cannot believe I meant nothing to you
You used me and threw me away
Yes, I ended things but that is because you broke me you finally tore me apart
Last straw was finding out of your cheating
One thing was the bruises you left on me physically and mentally but knowing you needed someone else's loving is something that cuts deepest
I have an amazing man who wants me to be his, but I cannot because of you
You ruined me deeper then you will possibly know
I can never be the same girl I was before you. I do not even recognize myself
I like to believe I am strong even when I fall apart
I do not love you anymore that I know for sure.
It is not you that I hate. I hate myself for letting you ruin me
I do not miss you; you disgust me. I miss my old self
I have forgiven you, but I am still at loss at forgiving myself