Toxic Enough Poem by Tumisang Ramarea

You are slim, with your sleek hair
Nice pens, and your skin is fair
You aren't that smart so I can dare to write to you,
"I love you, you are my girlfriend, okay? "
You say yes, but do you really mean yes?
I'm only ten but I'm toxic enough!

You aren't that smart either,
But I don't want kids with eyes like that,
Call me bitter,
Yes, I'm toxic enough!

You're in my league of smart,
So I can only follow you with no
Declaration of love from my part,
Some might say an independent 13 year
Old girl is intimidating,
I have to agree because I'm toxic enough!

You're smart, you're gorgeous, you're all that,
You're even my best friend,
We know how this will end,
Fine I'll say it!
So I write you a love letter,
But think it's better to secretly drop it into your backpack,
It backfires and I wish I could take a step back,
You say no because you are my best friend
And you know I'm toxic enough!

You're my angel, rib of my ribs,
I write you poems and plenty of love letters,
Sending some over the radio when I call,
Or deliver to you, where your presence makes me fall,
Fall in love again and again,
All is perfect, except it's been almost a year and we still haven't kissed.
I haven't asked except in the beginning, but as my girlfriend you should have known.
So I dump you after Valentine's Day,
You kiss me hard, call me a fool, but I walk away,
Heartless but I'm toxic enough!

First Lady of my heart, the straw the berry,
The one I thought I would marry,
Remember the walks, the awkward moments when cars would soak us with their unwelcome headlights,
Remember when we would take our broke selves to share one plate at Chicken Licken,
Licking away the juice out of our sweet love,
Then he told me you were cheating on me,
And my first thought was, women!
So my insecurities and fear of communication forced me to walk away,
I hurt you, and I hurt you again,
Wasn't I toxic enough already?

We walk along La Sabana Park, two single friends on Valentine's Day,
We lie on this hill gazing at the stars, two friends far away?
I am the first boy to see your beautiful black hair,
But I'm too busy worried about what people would think,
Because I have publicly declared my love for this other girl I barely know,
So we only meet under cover of darkness,
In the end I don't even say goodbye to you, the love of my life,
I am toxic enough!

She broke my heart and you were there for me,
Along the line we blurred the lines,
So the flames we played with burned us,
No, that's the toxicity trying to explain away how I hurt you,
To think you were willing to relocate from Europe to the US for me,
Haven't I been toxic enough?

You didn't even ask for my consent,
Wasn't I already toxic enough?

I wish we had just remained friends,
I'm toxic, you're toxic, and together, not even North Korea stands a chance,
I remember Martin Luther King Day,
Going our separate ways was for the best.
My toxic was enough.

Life with you was full of color and flavor,
Musical shows, plays, coffee dates,
But I guess once toxic, one is bound to ruin even the amazing of relations,
Or we were talking or whatever we did,
I'm toxic enough.

I'm toxic and it ends with enough!

Why am I such a creep?
Staring at you at parties when you are just trying to have fun,
Enough!
So I awkwardly send you a text apologizing for being a creep,
You say it's fine,
See!
I should have just started by asking you if you wanted to go for coffee,
But now I ruined it,
Enough!

So enough is enough!

Detoxify!

Someday soon, I won't have to say,
"I'm toxic enough" because toxic is toxic,
Toxic is toxic and the only toxic that is enough is zero toxic!