Was It A Dream.............. Poem by donavan avril

Was it a dream when u approach me the first time we meet,
Will it be a fairy tail ending with a happily ever after,
Was it a lie when u told me u love me?
Or you just said that to make me feel good!
Are u just using me for what I have, or to gain what u need?
Why do you always hurt me,
knowing I will still love u with the pieces of my heart.
Am I to blind to see that am just in lust and nothing more..
Every time u show affection when u need comfort?
Is this all I am to you, your comforter?
Is this average life hold?
Or the price I pay for being me.
If that what love entails I rather be in lust,
Cause my heart is sore,
My hands are weak,
And my feet trembles.......
The cold wind blows, my body shivers,
Goose bums from head to toes,
A fear of fright cast over my eye,
With sweat drips over fills my face.
With love at a cursed of hatred an am holding on
To this cursed with the piece of my heart,
Wondering if it will ever be put together again.
Will I know what love really feels
Or am just living my life in lust and vanity......