What Am I Doing Poem by kim blackmon

What am I doing? Why am I doing this to myself? I can’t tell what right or wrong. I can’t tell if it is real or fake. I can’t tell myself to stop. It like I lost myself in my own body. It like I’m their but I’m not! I’m trying to ask for help but I don’t know how. I am trying to tell myself it will all be over soon. It all one big dream I will wake up and be safe in my own little bed. But I am just fooling myself when I say that. I know it will not be over soon. I know it will just get a lot worst. I know she will keep coming back. I know she will not leave me alone till that fateful night. That when she will leave me alone.