What Am I Suppose To Do Poem by Andrea Bencardino

Wat can I do…
I can’t help myself, I think of you
I can’t get you out my mind.
There’s something about you
that keeps me going on
There’s times when I want hate you
But I can’t bring myself to
When I get to thinkin every night
It makes me wanna cry…
you were the closest person to me
And now Ive lost u…
Do you know how that makes me feel?
I just want you in my arms so bad
But I can’t…why…
I feel incomplete
uncomprehensible,
irrational,
confrontational,
I feel lost...
you say I deserve better
but I know I dont.

I would never treat you like he did…
you know that too.
You bring me up wen I’m down
I like that.
I love your smile
everytime I see you smile
I cant help but smile.
you have me…You always have
but I don’t have you
I never will.

So tell me wat do I do?
Were over
Were done
Were nothing
Wats goin to happen to us?
Im still irrevocably In love with you
I can get use to the pain
I can get use to the idea of you not being there
but will I ever get over it.
Im not sure.
So all I gotta say is…wat am I suppose to do?
Can you tell me that?