What Do I Have To Do Poem by shelbie bozeman

What do I have to do
to be happy once more
what do I have to do
to walk out the door

I know what I want
but how do I say
with a different parent I want to live
without them being betrayed

I have been lied to
and I feel all alone
and noone understands
that my heart started to groan

My heart is hurting
and my mind so confused
because of all the lies that have been told
are mixed with the truth

So how do I desipher
the truth and the lies
because I need to think on my own
before my happiness dies

I adore all of my parents
each one is unique
and the one I want to live with
to noones face I ever speak

They all have a place in my heart
different but the same
I love them all equally
but my happiness is being drained

I will always love them
not a doubt in my mind
so why do they tell me and think
otherwise

If they don't think I love them
Is that my fault
because I know that it
truly is not

If they deny the truth
of what they know is right
why should I suffer
and become engulfed in lies

What do I have to do
to prove once again
that no matter what happens
It will be the best in the end

How do I say
' this person lies to you'
because they reject it
even though they know it's true

Just because I'm a kid
I know what's best for me
but how do I tell them
whether or not I want to live with mommie?

So say if I did
does that make me bad
because apparently it does
in the eyes of my grandma and dad

I am stuck between what I want
and what they want to
so how am I going to explain it
to them and you?

I will put it simply
whether you like it or not
you know what is right
and you have been caught

I know what I want
and so do you
when it comes to stand up
what will you choose?

What do I have to do
to make you understand
that so and so is lying
and with the other person I stand

What do I have to do
do you need proof
to show my logic
and desipher lies and truth

so now you know
what runs in my mind
better make a desision
running low on time.