Why Poem by Kaysen Fraker

Why
what’s wrong with me
do you know
probably not

No matter what I do
I always go after
the girl that will hurt me
or never trust me

I don't understand it
do I love the pain
the pain of heart break
am I that desperate to feel something

Am I so desperate
to feel the warmth of the light
to escape the darkness
that I'll willingly suffer

Do I do it on purpose
am I just really unlucky
do the gods hate me
Why?