Why Am I Getting So Scared? Poem by samphors vuth

The only and one thing that I usually ask myself is" why I'm getting so scared? "
I try to tell and control myself try not to be scared
But most of all I can't...: (
I try to act like normal but when I met stranger, smart people or someone I like
I feel like I'm going to die sometime in a day
They make me feel like I can't do anything even read or talk is getting on my way
My friends and my families told me DON'T be scared mostly in the first day
I feel like I'm so slow, stupid, weird and only one person in class
I try to focus in every science or math
I never scared and I do it fast as long as no one looks at me so strange
But when they do I feel so shame
I like "Mang! ! How can this happen again and again? "
It like my routine that I usually have with some people
I try to change but it SUPER hard to have it change because it's my feeling I can't control it >.<
I wish I become so smart so I won't have this hard time with people
And all the people around the world