Emily Reid

You Don'T Know

I help you through hard times, as you do I
But you really don't know how much I hide
Even though we are the best of friends
I really don't think you can understand
I can't bear the hurt, I can't stand the pain
A feeling of numbness I can't explain.

This is a life in which I walk alone
Full of hope shattered and broken
Always angry for no reason at all
Constantly wanting to end this brawl
Fighting with myself again, and again,
Sometimes I want this life to end

Inside me is the worst of all
I don't know how long I can stand tall
Memories of happiness are thrown away
But horrible twisted thoughts to stay

Everything I do is a wrong decision
She constantly tells me I'm not living
The path that she truly wishes I'd take
But I'm only one big mistake
If I could I'd erase myself from here
I wouldn't have to live this fear

Some people call me pretty
But I look at myself in the mirror
Disappointed in the reflection that appears
It's hard to live when you don't love who you are
Wishing that you could change it all

Every day I make a mental note
How much would I miss, if I decide to go
And how much hurt makes me lean towards the edge
Is slowly creeping up the hedge
How much longer can I last?
Before my life becomes one of the past.

Poem Submitted: Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Poem Edited: Sunday, May 20, 2012

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  • Adeline FosterAdeline Foster (3/3/2013 12:57:00 PM)

    Tried to think how to help you repair some of the structure of this poem and then I thought, she should really read mine - Last Rung On Your Ladder -'

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