You Were The Weather. Poem by lexi liegh Brown

It's a starry cold night.
And I can see my breath fade into the air.

my face rosy red due to the wind brushing against my cheeks.
My hands ache like never before,
but it's worth the cost to witness a night this beautiful.

As I look up and see the moon.
For some reason I think of you.
I'm not quite sure why. as we turned on different paths.
But suddenly. I can remember your laugh.
As though I'm cursed.
The thought of you makes my skin hurt. which is strange
As I thought only the cold could do that.

suddenly your in my head.
and these thoughts push me to my bed. only in my dreams I can see you as you were before.
I grasp onto these shards of hope that one day you'll come back.
just how the moon does when the sky turns black.

suddenly, the thought of you
are like knives punctured into my heart.
How can I explain why we drifted apart?
unfulfilled promises
leading to a Broken heart.

it felt like the autumn breeze
when we weren't apart.

You were winter in human form.
Beautiful from afar.
But as I spent longer in the cold.
that aching feeling never gets old.

as I'm in my room
rethinking these memories.
your laugh echos against my four walls.
and suddenly everything leads back to you.
intertwined into my soul.
I thought we were whole.

Faint scents lead me back to summer. When the breeze was warm and made me feel safe.

Your moods shifting like seasons.
Warm one day. Cold the next.
And now I realise
it was you who brought me distress

I sealed my thoughts in a vault.
and scared I hurled away the key.
so no one will ever know
how much you truly hurt me.

Only one person knew
and it was you.
Yet you chose to stay silent
which I never thought you'd do.

so now I realise. You and the weather are the same.

And now
whenever I feel the cold,
see my breath in the air.
My face turning red,
and my hands sore.

I remember your love. Beautiful once, but now rotten to the core.