Your Purpose In My Life Poem by Nirupa Narine

My doubts have cleared, but indirectly
All those years I used to thing that you never thought about me…
But when you told me about the things that you would discuss with someone so close,
I felt like the air inside me just shot straight to my throat and just stayed there.
I felt like crying,
But I didn’t know for which reason…
Guilt?
Or for knowing now the pain that I made you go through?
If only times were different back then,
And there was no pain,
But then I think if it was different,
Would we still be here today, laughing and sweating with nervousness?
Maybe it was a reason why everything happened that way,
All that pain,
Wastage of water,
Everything happens for a reason but what I don’t understand,
Is the purpose for all of this.