I always wanted to do something big in life to make my parents proud. I wanted to be an IAS officer but Sirf ek Qadam utha tha galat raah-e-shauq mein/manzil tamam umr hame dhundti rahi(Just one wrong step in life and my destination looked for me all life long.)
The soul numbing loss of a dream demanded that I settle for another and do something more than repent or howl in solitude as if someone close was dead. Though I admit I did a lot of that too because it was easier than to face squarely a life of challenge. DO THE DUTY, REWARD IS NOT THY CONCERN. All this has reinforced a belief that nothing in life comes to u without u either deserving it or working for it.
I started working, reading, writing and rediscovering myself. When a scribble on back page of a notebook or a thought warmly expressed won an applause my spirit boast up. Today, finally, I have turned into a writer at forty goaded from within to write from the time when I was twenty. For my family and friends I am just a writer but I enjoy my foray into a new world. I am completely taken in, when a pen comes in my hand every thing else flows out.I am at peace and have a biggest smile on my face when a musing thought in my mind takes the shape of a write-up or when people connect to it or appreciate it.
last but not the least, Believe in what you want to do even if it seems like it is the hardest thing to do but once you have made up your mind…the universe responds in overwhelming ways.
And the dream of my life has just begun.
Every time we disagree
this hate becomes stronger.
So many times we have played
this love hate relationship
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Let all the birds return to their cocoons.
Let all the humans attain 'Nirvana'.
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Aasmaa hai Qam nila,
Paani bhi karta adha gila.
Imaaraton ki unchhai dekh,
Ab hara bhi lagta matmaila.
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ज़िन्दगी कुछ इस तरह बसर किये जा रहा हूँ मैं,
अपनों से दूर गैरों के लिए जिए जा रहा हूँ मैं.
अक्सर पीछे मुड के देखता हूँ शायद
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