while you were, i wasn't
you were fading away, it didn't bother me
you left, i didn't notice
i noticed but i didn't care
...
Which road should I walk,
if no roads lead to you
which song should i listen to,
if no song resonates with your voice
...
Where are you?
the face i couldn't take my eyes off
those piercing eyes that saw through my soul
the tenderness of your touch
...
all my neurons
all the narratives it set
all the biases i had
all of it vanished
...
i found myself thinking about you
about everything we were
everything we could have been
and everything in between
...
I was unknown to the light she brought
till it dimmed and faded away
Now in the shadows i walk,
where once your light had paved my way
...
this language thing doesnt really work, , , what i write is not what i think and what people understand from my writing has nothing to do with me or my thought...then how the fuck can i express the thoughts that are keeping me up at night, chasing me everywhere.The most I could do is write it down,)
Alive In Your Memories
while you were, i wasn't
you were fading away, it didn't bother me
you left, i didn't notice
i noticed but i didn't care
what a dickhead i was, i am
cant comprehend how i left you stranded
when you needed me the most
now in the guilt
i find myself alive
only in your memories i live
how hard it must be to let go
letting go not the only thing you have
but the only thing you want
all i am is a lifeless soul
floating in a shoreless sea
of guilt and regret
cant find a reason to believe
cant find a reason to hope
coz you're gone
gone too far
far from me
The guy I want to be is already there somewhere within me and the one I detest is there too.It was never about reaching somewhere, it was all about knowing what i already was.And I got it wrong the whole time.