Titanica Johnson

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I'm 31 years old I now live in Grand Rapids, Mi I have been here for about 12 years now. I love to write poetry and short stories it has always been my escape it feeds my mind as well as soul being able to escape into someething that I write or to write about the experiences in my life. I love spending time with my kids they help me to stay sharp.)

The Best Poem Of Titanica Johnson

A Broken Woman

As I sit alone on my couch wondering what
the purpose of the rest of my life will be,
that woman I was and that woman I now see
I'm so confused, baffled, and most of time stuck
in the memory of the old me, wondering will I ever be
the woman I use to be

Will I ever beable to spread my legs completely to
feel the entirety of the man I will love,
will I ever beable to walk down the street embraced in a lover's hug
will I ever beable to at the dropp of a hat rid myself of all my clothes,
because the body I now have keeps me saying no

Will I ever beable to dance again,
will I ever beable to have a honest and trusting friend
will my kids still love me when i'm not able to do all the things we use to do, or will they hate me for being handi-cap an unable too,
will everyone around me start to see me for me, or
will they continue to be stuck on the woman I use to be

Well mentally I know i'm the same, but physically their are so many things about me that have changed
My body I now find repulsive, my mind a find adrift
My memories I keep locked away that I know will be unlocked with my first gentle kiss
I try so hard not to fantum the idea of not being the woman I was or the woman I wanted to be,
but it's so hard as I look in the mirror an see the woman I now see

So much about me has changed, I feel that my heart is broken, and physically i'm in so much pain
Though their are alot of things I will never beable to do,
my life is still filled with so many things,
an as time goes on,
and I get older I realize that life is subject to change
I now have 31 years of experience an was given a second chance,
My life's purpose still hasn't come to me yet,
but my life can finally begin again

Their are so many things I want an hope to one day do,
an on this journey I will take my kids are with me too,
I know now that they do an will undrestand, that I will do every and anything I can,
It may not be successful, but I will beable to say I tried,
So when my kids remember me it won't be for my cries
My family is finally starting to come around,
still don't have alot of friends though, but with the Lord in my life anything is possible their is no end

I may never beable to see that woman I use to see,
I have come to terms with my life an now i'm free,
I know their are things I will never beable to do,
but as I keep my faith I know in my heart there are alot of
things I will overcome and accomplish too,
So please when you look at me, an it is a broken woman you will see
Please judge me for who I am,
and not the woman I use to be

Written by: Titanica D. Johnson

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