Yuliia Lapushanska

and I am tired of rejection
tired tired tired
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God calls you higher
higher than your fears
higher than your wishes
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everything happens
but feels like
i have stucked
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i feel nothing
sometimes even more than it

stick
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absence of news
one day two days three days
I am taking a short of inactivity
can nothing to do
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what does it mean
to be Gods child

it means
...

it's time for everything
to create content and enjoy it
to make yourself better
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you go
but pain moves with you
you can escape it
you can't run
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i don't wanna
push anything

if it goes
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people
will never be satisfied with you
fully
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wanna
be disconnected
out
of people
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on the last breath
i am trying to not fall
and being with You, Lord
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the more quarrels you make with someone
the more you close with them

you can't be in a quarrel with someone
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so yea
it was the day when I failed
and I failed again
and again
...

but doch
it is

your days may seem so similar
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if I am worried
yea, I do

I want to relax
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Just say yes to the Lord. He will do everything else. You don't need to be pushed go where you need to go. God will take for it by Himself. You don't need to be afraid, because the every wish. Even the most bravest… He will realise. And this realisation will be for real beautiful and in time. He is always in time.

Even when you don't feel yourself good. Even when you are tired. It is the part of the plan. His plan is perfect and He is going to make in a perfect pease. Pease that only Be can give. It will be blessed. Everything you could imagine to be realised will be so. He will provide and will care. Everything, literally so, that you could imagine [from your dreams connected with worshiping God and the conditions where you can make it], will be presented you in His time.
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I forgive myself
for being not perfect

for making mistakes being a human
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and it's not only about lie to yourself
it's not a process of it

its about making things
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I don't know what's going on
Should I keep it clean
Should I lie
Or should I being still
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