Everything is just so complicated, I want you to know that.
I care so much about you, I really do, but I don’t think you know that.
I’m not angry at you, or at what was, I’m angry at myself.
I don’t know what love is, I’ve never known.
I tried my hardest to pretend to you that I knew what it was.
But that got me nowhere.
I wanted you to teach me to love, to take my hands and love me, but I turned you away.
You thought I felt nothing for you.
I've had you locked inside my head since the 13th of march.
I have feelings that I can’t explain, I know they have to be love, but without you they just build up inside me.
And come out in the wrong ways.
I don’t want to be angry anymore, I want to love you with all my heart.
There’s only two things in this world that will ever make me cry.
One is memories of the past, the other is that i am a person who knows not what love is.
I want to learn.
I stood there, staring at you, in my head I put my arms around you, kissed you on the cheek, whispered in your ear I love you.
But I could not do that, I got so scared, i've never felt these things before, these urges to express my deepest feelings, they scare me.
I let you go, because it seemed you didn’t enjoy me anymore.
The next few days I hated myself, I am miserable like never before.
I feel so sick, as if there is no happiness to look forward to.
Nothing matters right now.
The times we had will never leave me.
I feel pathetic through all this, I’m not one to mope and sulk around, but it all hurts, everywhere.
Everything is building up in my chest, I want a second chance, I want to show what you mean to me.
I want to make you happy like you’ve never been before, I want to care about you, I want to love you!
Let me take your hand, and if I can’t do it myself, show me how.
I still love you!