Austen Bates

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As The Demons Haunt

Pills
Blades
Ropes

Run in your head 24/7

They haunt you as your day goes on
They tell you take them
And use them

You fight saying no i cant
So you continue on ur day
And they come back

They pressure you again
And you yell and say noo! !
And continue ur day
With a smile on ur face
But your mood is a way to tell ur not okay

Your day was horrible because all these thoughts were in your head
And you just wanted them to get out but they stayed in

You get haunted again by them and this time you
Get the pills into your eyesight
You grab the blades out and put them next to the pills
And you grab the rope and hold it in your hand

You start to cry and scream for help
But no one hears a single sound
And you continue to scream and cry and punch the wall wanting help
But no one can hear your cry outs for help

You grab 1 pill and take it and cry saying why
You grab the blade and make 1 lash and say in pain why
You continue to do this pattern over and over
Until you cant take no more

You go on the next day continued to be haunted by these thoughts
You say no i suffered enough yesterday

But these thoughts dont care
So they keep making you feel horrible
And now people at school can see your cuts and scars you etched in ur skin and
Never come and ask if your okay
They never come to check in on you

And they continue their day like they noticed nothing
But bullshit they did notice your cuts but they dont care for you
Thats why they didnt even bother to check up on u! !

And then you get called names for the hell you're going through
And it puts you in more pain

So the thoughts come back because they never go away

You get home and cry away
Wanting to be saved
Just knowing no ones there for you

So you reopen cuts and cut some more and finish the bottle of pills and start to tie the noose

You cry and scream in pain watching as the blood falls down from your wrists and thighs onto the floor
Leaving the floor blood soaked pour

You stand up on ur bed and put the noose around you neck and right as you fall
Your crush or someone who loves you catches you and holds you close

Letting you cry on their shoulders hugging them as tight as you can
And just keep saying thank you to them in a whisper

And they always say its okay breathe im here and ill always stay by your side no matter what

And you just keep saying thank you because they saved your life

You fall even more in love with them and want to be with them forever and ever

Because they made your life have meaning
And they saved you and your just amazed
That they care and love you
And that they caught you on the erge to suicide

And your just crying alot because you cant believe it
So you continue to hug tight and as
Your tears are little about to stop crying you kiss them on the cheek and keep saying

Thank you for everything

-Austen Bates

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