C.S. Keskuela Poems

I am the new steel
hard when i need
soft and flexible when i wish
pliable
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You have taught me
how to be more graceful
in the letting go
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undescribable pain
loosen these chains
i'm sinking
drowning
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Nights
filled with loathing and regret
sadness and longing
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love's waiting
inside out there somewhere for me to find
deny accept and visualize
keep looking forward and never behind
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i no longer believe
belief is such an intangible thing to hold onto
i can't hold on anymore
to my belief in you
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why do i fight
these feelings within me i hide
because you've asked me to only
why do you fight so hard
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i pretend to be happy
while you pretend that it's true
and that you are happy too
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love
cannot be taken
by force, guile or subtle control
it cannot be held
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sweet submission
to the universe
this lie is at an end
my life i will not spend
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