Caitlyn Williams

I don't think i can do this anymore. Don't think i can be some other girl. Someone i'm not. It's too difficult to pretend, and it hurts a lot. Like a new hole being punched through my chest.
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Forever and always my love. For a love so true can never be broken. You're the air i breathe, and the songs i sing. You're the apple of my eye and my sun in the sky. You're my moon in the night and my stars that shine so bright. You're the beats my heart takes and the promises that i make. Forever and always my love. For a love so true can never, ever be broken.
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Oh.....what a pretty black river.
Oh.....from the cold i shiver.
Oh.....from the rage i quiver.
All.....from that pretty black river.
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He's dark. Silent. Like a ghost, gone before anyone can catch him. He walks with leisure...pride. His mother is night, His father, the moon. His siblings, the stars. All three guide him. No one knows that his home is the one place where souls lie in eternal rest. Nobody knows the secrets he holds, nor the lies he's heard. He hides in shadow, and lives in the night.
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Take it all away....take me away with it...
Tell me that you care....you don't really care at all...
Trusted you once....pain is what you left me with...
Broke me down....didn't fix me up...just left me there...
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You left me, alone. Cold.Wondering where i went wrong, or what was in play all along.. I tried to figure out what happened to you. Why you wouldn't tell me the truth. Forgotten and Broken, i stand alone. Back against the wall, i brace myself for the fall. Trying to control my life, before it ends in strife.
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They say that death is a painful truth and life is a beautiful lie. Life itself is a play on words. People tell me that it has so many promises and fullfiments...........but they all lie. Life is nothing to be messed with. Now i understand why people look forward to death, whether it be peaceful, or unfathomable. They look for that one day when they can finally be at peace from all the hardships that life serves them. You have to keep running. Fighting.......
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If i stumble and fall....will you catch me?
When i'm alone......will you be here with me?
If i'm scared.....will you fight away my fears?
If i shed tears.....will you wipe them away?
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I remember that one late summer evening. It was just us and the lonely night. I remember the stars shining down on us.......shining down on her. She was beautiful. Her soft, fiery red hair was down that night, and as i watched it sway gently to and fro, i fell unto her cautious gaze......those deep and luscious midnight eyes of hers, sparkled like black onyxes hidden deep within a mine, never to be found. But i found her.
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Shall we fall so easily for it's foolish games and it's twisted ways?
It's like a habit. Easy to start, but hard to give up or let go.
It can leave you breathless and wanting more, while at the same time,
ripping you apart and taking away your heart, piece by agonizing piece.
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....I awaken. It's still dark. I hear the reminiscence of my far away dream. Children are playing in the street, and the birds are cheering up the day with their songs of early morning. I move to the window. It's dark.
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Why you wanna be perfect? Golden hair that shines as bright as the sun, and eyes bluer than the Mississippi. Cheeks rosier than cherry topped pies with a whip cream smile that makes anything worthwhile.
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We all look for that one spec of hope in the midst of a storm. Fighting for our souls in the middle of a black ocean that tosses us around like a useless ragdoll. Screams and terror surround us. Tragedy succumbs to loneliness. Anger succumbs to a great hunger for revenge.
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Love can't touch a broken heart....
Love can't come into a broken life...
Love can't find a broken soul....
Love can't see all the broken lies....
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They say that death is a painful truth and life is a beautiful lie. Life itself is a play on words. People tell me that it has so many promises and fullfilments........but they all lie. Life is no game to be played with. Now i understand why people look forward to death, whether it be peaceful,
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Some say it doesn't exist. It isn't what it seems. There is such a things as a never ending dream. They paint pictures in your mind, like a story. Making a story that may or may not make sense. Stories that defy the laws of physics and sometimes gravity.
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You look at me. Bewildered, confused maybe. Maybe forgiveness is something you lack, I, with my naiveness, cannot simply fathom the war you've fought ever since the day you were born, and yet, somewhere deep inside, behind all the stress and the rage, you look upon me with deep and sorrowful longing. I want to understand who you truly are.......
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I remember us. Sitting on our favorite cliff watching the sun settle below the soft, pillowy clouds. I remember you. Holding my hand and gently stroking the fushia heart ring you had given me for my birthday. I remember me. Scooting closer to you, urging you to protect me from the chilling wind that tickled my skin.
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