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Tired I walk toward everything except fear

over seaweed-covered rocks

I think that someday some new women

will be allowed to see each other happy

happy more than usual

I looked in all the other open rooms of my heart

A vague fear obscured the whole scene into a diorama of ruin

As sharp as a sword-cut the light struck a half-reclining cloud

Time and distance trembled in my body





To become in love with everything apropos of nothing

To see without seeming to stare

To change in the reflection

To appear peculiar





We never refer to sadness

as something that looks

like secrecy

but it does





I drifted on the fresh breeze

I did not like it

Joy joy joy although not joy a bad thing

I can feel it wet against my bosom

My journey is mapped and ready

I am only taking one dress





I don't want to talk of infinitesimal distinctions

between man and man see no difference between men and maidens

I am the modern Morpheus
I made the minutes disappear
I am thin
an errant swarm of bees
a naked lunatic
faithful
selfish
old
a tiger
immensely strong
a wild beast
a paroxysm of rage
mercy
murder
coming
coming
coming


chapter xiv



After a bad night I lock myself in my room and read

I had only imagination

I remember how on our wedding day he said

I shall never let trouble or nervousness concern you you can trust me

I must not forgive I cannot

I know the real truth now

My imagination tinges everything with ill adventure

I suppose a cry clears the air as other rain does





I have a good memory for details

it is not always so with young ladies or so it had been said to me

I cannot comprehend this husband

Women all their lives are interrupted considered hysterical

summoned to make children for the strong and manly

and for his sake must smile and not speak

Now this man I began to think a weak fool

I had trusted him my husband

even half believed his words when he said

I would have an ordinary life without dread





Let me tell you from experience of men

his brain and heart are terrible things

This man impotent in the dark

He succeeded in getting me to doubt

everything took a hue of unreality

I did not trust even my own senses

You don't know what it is to doubt everything even yourself

I am a wife he fashioned by his own hand

to be sweet and earnest and so kind





An idea struck me

Following great loss  people see things that others cannot

Men want to explain explain explain

see themselves new pretend to be young

Ladies' bodies are deemed unholy

by the very men who burn them

Generations of men believe that women

walk amongst them without knowledge

My thesis is this

I want to believe to believe

to believe in

a universe willing

to understand


chapter xxi



A detail in a pool of blood

the body gathered in an awkward kink

I dress myself  in easy anything





I softened into a swollen confusion

only slightly solid I was shining

He beckoned

His hands a dark mass like a thousand rats

A cloud closed over my eyes

I moistened myself with brandy

I held tight to life

I became like water





Kneeling on the edge of the bed his face was turned

his left hand held both arms his right gripped

my neck blood a thin stream of it his nostrils quivered





I lay in disarray

my eyes and from them came an endless moment

Cold moonshine dazed me I began to pull on clothes

I drew back unclean

Shame folded me like steel tried to twist me in obedience

I could not feel the rise of reddening dawn

Silence the sound of  what happened





I want you to know all this

understand how much I need to show you

It was he who caused me to disappear

My husband my husband and other men

hunt me and command my flesh my blood my brain

This is my pollution story





The eastern sky became clear
as the awful narrative deepened
in the morning light
when the first red streak shot up my flesh
...

In my favorite fantasy
I am given

permission I am prone
face toward the light
beach queen bathed in body

A thought that comes from a coming-from the sweet place

where a sunset isn't indescribable
something simply looked at

The sun sets I sit
sinless in sand
I sip only once
...

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Tired I walk toward everything except fear

over seaweed-covered rocks

I think that someday some new women

will be allowed to see each other happy

happy more than usual

I looked in all the other open rooms of my heart

A vague fear obscured the whole scene into a diorama of ruin

As sharp as a sword-cut the light struck a half-reclining cloud

Time and distance trembled in my body





To become in love with everything apropos of nothing

To see without seeming to stare

To change in the reflection

To appear peculiar





We never refer to sadness

as something that looks

like secrecy

but it does





I drifted on the fresh breeze

I did not like it

Joy joy joy although not joy a bad thing

I can feel it wet against my bosom

My journey is mapped and ready

I am only taking one dress





I don't want to talk of infinitesimal distinctions

between man and man see no difference between men and maidens

I am the modern Morpheus
I made the minutes disappear
I am thin
an errant swarm of bees
a naked lunatic
faithful
selfish
old
a tiger
immensely strong
a wild beast
a paroxysm of rage
mercy
murder
coming
coming
coming


chapter xiv



After a bad night I lock myself in my room and read

I had only imagination

I remember how on our wedding day he said

I shall never let trouble or nervousness concern you you can trust me

I must not forgive I cannot

I know the real truth now

My imagination tinges everything with ill adventure

I suppose a cry clears the air as other rain does





I have a good memory for details

it is not always so with young ladies or so it had been said to me

I cannot comprehend this husband

Women all their lives are interrupted considered hysterical

summoned to make children for the strong and manly

and for his sake must smile and not speak

Now this man I began to think a weak fool

I had trusted him my husband

even half believed his words when he said

I would have an ordinary life without dread





Let me tell you from experience of men

his brain and heart are terrible things

This man impotent in the dark

He succeeded in getting me to doubt

everything took a hue of unreality

I did not trust even my own senses

You don't know what it is to doubt everything even yourself

I am a wife he fashioned by his own hand

to be sweet and earnest and so kind





An idea struck me

Following great loss  people see things that others cannot

Men want to explain explain explain

see themselves new pretend to be young

Ladies' bodies are deemed unholy

by the very men who burn them

Generations of men believe that women

walk amongst them without knowledge

My thesis is this

I want to believe to believe

to believe in

a universe willing

to understand


chapter xxi



A detail in a pool of blood

the body gathered in an awkward kink

I dress myself  in easy anything





I softened into a swollen confusion

only slightly solid I was shining

He beckoned

His hands a dark mass like a thousand rats

A cloud closed over my eyes

I moistened myself with brandy

I held tight to life

I became like water





Kneeling on the edge of the bed his face was turned

his left hand held both arms his right gripped

my neck blood a thin stream of it his nostrils quivered





I lay in disarray

my eyes and from them came an endless moment

Cold moonshine dazed me I began to pull on clothes

I drew back unclean

Shame folded me like steel tried to twist me in obedience

I could not feel the rise of reddening dawn

Silence the sound of  what happened





I want you to know all this

understand how much I need to show you

It was he who caused me to disappear

My husband my husband and other men

hunt me and command my flesh my blood my brain

This is my pollution story





The eastern sky became clear
as the awful narrative deepened
in the morning light
when the first red streak shot up my flesh

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