I fear the fear i cannot stop,
I fear it more and more,
And when i grind my teeth with pain,
The words come out demure.
I close my eyes with acid,
And dream while not asleep,
To confuse any enemys,
Anything i write i eat.
I fear the loss of loving,
But loving leads to pain,
So when im loving i admit,
I start to fear again.
I cry tears of happiness,
To pretend it isnt real,
I divulge no information,
On what is truely real.
I say sorry constantly,
It means nothing anymore,
Im sorry i cant be sincere,
Are you wanting more?
Would you like my fantasies,
To warp with truth and light,
Or can i keep them to myself,
So i can keep them warped inside?
I fear my sense of longing,
I turn me inside out,
My insides are much prettier,
Than the outsides ever felt.
So spit on me with poison,
Prove my worth is nil,