Cindy Nwajei

In the palm of my hand,
I hold a future,
A future waiting to unfold.
In the palm of my hand,
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Sorry can do nothing
It is powerless, It is useless
It cannot bring back a loved one, It cannot take away the pain.
Its just a word thats like medicine, it temporarily eases the pain.
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It hurts to know that your happy with someone else.
It hurts to know that you smile more when your with her.
It hurts to know that you like her more than you do me.
It hurts to know that you'd rather spend your time with her than you would with me.
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The way we met was scandalous.
What we talked about we inappropriate.
The way your eyes followed me was indecent.
A love never meant to happen.
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You take from me
you don't give back
but i don't care.
you ask from me
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we spent time together
talked together
kissed together
now your gone and i miss you
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The pain the sadness the misery, the memories
it sounds sad but it is the most memorable time i know
if i can i would go back to it
but i can't, i can only look back on the times we had,
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Why do we have to die
Why do we have to lie
Why do we have to feel pain
Why do people go insane
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if happiness had a form, what would it look like. Would it be a smiling face or your favorite place.
if sadness had a form what would it look like. would it be a face with tears or your greatest fears.
if hope had a form what would it look like. would it be to win competition or your enjoyable aspirition.
if success had a form what would it look like. would it be money and wealth or family and health.
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A cycle of pain
A cycle of smiles
A cycle of crying
A cycle of laughter
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You can say your happy, but i know your despairingly sad
You can say your smiling, but i know your burining mad
Its ok you can cry on my shoulder if you want, I'll always carry a kleenex for you.
I'll be your rock, and never move from your side.
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The worst thing on this earth, is life.
It only brings pain sadness sorrow guilt misery torture disappointment heartbreak and a million and one more things.
Life brings expectations that cant be met
Life brings awards that must be achieved
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can you hear it roaring? can you hear it screaming? can you hear hear roaming around the world beckoning for someone to answer its call.

screaming, yelling in agony saying...'i'm cold' can you hear it bellowing out to that one single ear can you hear it shaking and crashing thrashing and building destruction obstruction banging its doors slamming it windows and whitsling out for.
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Another year older
Another year wiser
Another year for regrets and moments of 'if only'
Another year of living in the moment
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Everything moves so fast,
Everything feels like deja vu
Everything is more exciting
Everything is different and so new
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What is true happiness? and Where can I find it?
I've been searching all my life to find the answer to become the answer, yet it evades me like running after a balloon that has already floated away.

It has become too late. Is it locked? and Where can I find the key?
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Rejection....

does not feel good
makes you feel like your worth nothing
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