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How Did We Get Here?

Alone
In a one bedroom apartment,
With the man I think I love,
Empty of emotion, touch, and intimacy.

Distant
On the couch,
In bed,
While cooking in the kitchen,
Empty of eye contact and smiles,
Full of side steps and "not now's".

Broken
My love for you,
My heart every time you move away,
Our relationship after 6 years.

Wonder
Are we really meant to be?
Am I just convenient, easy, and comfortable to you?
Deep down, beneath the surface,
Do you really LOVE me?

Tears
Sometimes silent at night when I lay my head on my pillow,
Others in the shower where I have privacy to let it all go,
Driving when my mind runs on all these thoughts.


Hope
That this will just be a phase, not ongoing.
If you really don't love me for all that I am, that you will let me go.
That soon you will open up to me and be honest.

Fear
Of losing you,
Of being alone,
Of living this empty life with you forever.

Anger
In your eyes, when I try and open up to you and talk about our relationship,
In your body language when I lean in for a kiss or hug,
In my mind, for staying with you when I don't feel wanted.
Sadness
That you didn't choose me on the hardest day of my life,
The way you talk down to me,
Day after day, thinking this can't be real love. Someone is out there that will love me the way I need.

Happy
The times you came home and gave me a hug, the real kind that I can feel through your touch that you truly appreciate and love me.
Kisses on my forehead.
Listening to you tell me all about your day, the ups and downs.
Your hand on my cheek when you kiss me, I can feel that you love me.

Questions
Why do you go so long resenting me?
Why won't you admit to me when I ask you what is wrong?
Why are we still together?
Are you really, truly in love with me?

Show me.

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