Complicated Collison

Cutting myself to
Make everything else
Go away but really
I’m just killing myself
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Acting as if I’m okay
Day to day feeling pain
Doing nothing to help myself
Lying to friends and family
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Cutting myself
Not eating
Not sleeping
All things that make everything
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Its sad when people you know
Become people you knew
When you can walk right past
Someone like they were never a
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All I am is a screw up
Nothing in my life matters
Some say I’m a good person
I can do whatever I want
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So you think you know me?
answer me these....
have you walked in my shoes?
hung out with me for a long time?
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You make me smile
You make me laugh
You do all the things
I have always wanted to do
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Music is my strength
Crying is my life
Laughing is a cover
For my feelings
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Your always with her, rather
talking
laughing
making crazy jokes
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I asked you
to play soccer
with me and her (kaitlin)
and you accepted
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Everytime I hear
your name, I get
a great big smile....
I love talking to you
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-Trying to get
everything back
to normal but
nothing I do
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I say....
I hate myself
that I'm ugly
I have no life
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I get called
bad things
when I'm
at school
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When you
sing to me
its like I'm
in heaven
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Tell me....
you love me
you hate me
you want me
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Talking to you
everyday
and night
telling you
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I love you
I hate you
I want to
tell you how
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I love you
so much
but I don't
know if I
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