Light swirling all around me. life me up off my feet.
healing all my wounds from years past.

Glistening spots of light surround me.
A warmth, a feeling,
that I don't know, that I have never felt before.
A sudden twist of pain awakens me from my deep,
unpleasant sleep.

I realize I am afraid of the unknown.
Unknown fear,
unknown pain,
that could consume me hole.

My mental wall keeps building.
Preparing me for the unknown.

Checking around every corner.
Looking for every attack or ambush that could fall upon me.

Taking uneeded caution to make sure I'm safe.
Putting a invisible wall between me and the world.

But yet I scream and challenge everyone to hurt me.
Hurt my mind,
hurt my body...
Just hurt me.

Leave the ones that has been able to brake into my mental wall,
leave the ones that I love kill me,