crystal ruth

You said that I deserved better,
so you told me that it was over.
But I don't deserve better;
I deserve you and only you.
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On a cold chilly night
I sat and watched
my one true love
slowly die.
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As we continue to grow
we will learn many things
and one of them is that
every good thing
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Always sat alone.
Always thought to myself.
I'd never said a word.
I'd never been outspoken
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For fourteen years
all that I was known
was that I had a mother
I didn't know of.
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All I'll ever be is me.
I'll always be Crystal Ruth.
And I'll always be the girl
who they continuously pick on.
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From time and time again
you proceed to state
how you expect more from me,
how you expect me to reach
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As you continue to stare at me
you'll see that there is only one me,
but if you choose to,
to dig down deeper
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Does your inspiration
come from someone
who lives and breathes darkness?
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The past is the past.
So, learn and build from it.

The present is here, right now.
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You see my smile,
you hear my laughter,
and you see my general glow
of happiness that is fake.
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If you live in the past
sadness will reappear.
If you forget the past
You can't learn from it.
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Everyone wants to be better
at something they do or to be
a better version of themselves,
but to be your best there has to be effort
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Please save me from this nightmare
because I can't bare to keep on going this way.
I didn't know that this world could be so cruel.
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I've seen the way
they treated you.
I've heard all the mean things
that they've said to you.
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If I can't be your soul mate.
If I can't be the one you love.
If us isn't meant to be
at least I have you as a friend.
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My heart has never loved
and will never be loved.
My heart has been shattered
to many times to keep track.
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What I thought was true is now a lie.
What I thought was real is now a fake.
What I felt for you is still the same
as I feel for you now.
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What we are is real
and real is who were suppose to be
and If we were meant to be fake
our skin would be plastic like Barbie,
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Dear J.,

The first time that we meet
was at a eighth grade track meet
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