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What Must Be Done

What must be done...
A promise I made that was not strange to me,
Yet it was broken before I could see,
It was made for you it's what my heart told me
But as time went on my mind clouded what I did see.

Everything that I did was for you,
The good was easy as it was all I knew,
But the bad was not for you,
The darkness clouded me and I knew not what to do.

For a long time my head and heart did not coincide,
My mind convinced my heart that it it's self was a lie,
Your strength for me shone though and my heart let out a sigh,
But the darkness was think, hard and my heart felt like it should die.

The lies and deceit was not what I truly am,
I tried so hard to hold the promises I kept the ones that were not strange to me,
I tried so hard to hold onto your strength to make me see,
But the darkness came heavy and thick, my grip weakened on me.

Some paths I chose were not the right ones but walked I did,
I stood tall for you even if you were not by my side, walked I did,
The cloud followed me everywhere, all I heard was your voice as in the cloud you hid,
I marched on thinking that you would be there at the end but you were still hid.

I made enemies on the way and dare I say you were one,
I did not mean for this to happen as my love for you is second to none,
The walks I took I had to take alone as the promise I made was a sacred one,
I wanted you to be happy and not to worry but that was not said to be done.

What pulled me through was the knowing that you were there,
I know as time went on by you became further and further away,
I wanted to hold you but I just didn't know what to say,
I cried so hard in my heart and I swear it gave way.

All I wanted was a family, willing to do what it takes,
There where times that I used happy thoughts like the walks around the lakes,
After all that happened it was not enough and my body began to ache,
The life we had brought into this world, I wanted to keep safe for her sake.

All what I did was for you and for our baby, sacrifice everyday,
This was an easy choice for me but the outcome was not as expected,
I only wished to hurt me but my family was affected,
At this point my heart died, lost and defected.

The only thing that has grown all though this is my love,
My love for you for our baby but I know what must be,
The distance hurts but it is what I must bare and I know you cannot see,
But one thing that has never faltered, never faded is my love for thee.

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