After the first astounding rush,
after the weeks at the lake,
the crystal, the clouds, the water lapping the rocks,
the snow breaking under our boots like skin,
...
I was sick of being a woman,
sick of the pain,
the irrelevant detail of sex,
my own concavity
...
I want to understand the steep thing
that climbs ladders in your throat.
I can't make sense of you.
Everywhere I look you're there--
...
You gave me the child
that seamed my belly
& stitched up my life.
...
Dear Colette,
I want to write to you
about being a woman
for that is what you write to me.
...
For Naomi Lazard
Sometimes I can't wait until I look like Nadezhda Mandelstam.
-- Naomi Lazard
...
Sometimes the poem
doesn't want to come;
it hides from the poet
like a playful cat
...
On the first night
of the full moon,
the primeval sack of ocean
broke,
...
I sit at home
at my desk alone
as I used to do
on many sunday afternoons
...
Because she wants to touch him,
she moves away.
Because she wants to talk to him,
she keeps silent.
...