Sometimes she's Confucian--
resolute in privation. . . .
Each day, more immobile,
...
The black kitten cries at her bowl
meek meek and the gray one glowers
from the windowsill. My hand on the can
...
The game of baseball is not a metaphor
and I know it's not really life.
The chalky green diamond, the lovely
...
Evening
Sometimes she's Confucian--
resolute in privation. . . .
Each day, more immobile,
hip not mending, legs swollen;
still she carries her grief
with a hard steadiness.
Twelve years uncompanioned,
there's no point longing for
what can't return. This morning,
she tells me, she found a robin
hunched in the damp dirt
by the blossoming white azalea.
Still there at noon--
she went out in the yard
with her 4-pronged metal cane--
it appeared to be dying.
Tonight, when she looked again,
the bird had disappeared and
in its place, under the bush,
was a tiny egg--
"Beautiful robin's-egg blue"--
she carried carefully indoors.
"Are you keeping it warm?"
I ask--what am I thinking?--
And she: "Gail, I don't want
a bird, I want a blue egg."